didn't get my summer job

i am SOOOOOO bummed, i didn't get the summer externship! Now i have to find a job for the summer. SO BUMMED

relaxing but sweltering day

well i dont know if i am just being lazy or what, but for whatever reason i have done nothing since getting home from the hospital @ 1. I know I should be doing myself the favor of studying alas i can't find the motivation. MAYBE it's due to the inside temp of our condo, 3 weeks with no AC. just found out yesterday that we need a totally new AC unit. barf... but the sooner they can put it in the better! it was a humid 85 degrees today! ugh -K.

Another World

Well, to avoid getting depressed I have thrown myself in TV today and probably for the following days. Today I was lucky enough to get sucked into a Titanic special on the histry channel, good stuff! I think i may have dinner with my dad, i get the feeling he wants to talk about me getting married, and i am hoping he hasn't lost any enthusiasim (sp) not that it will change the fact that I'm getting married in 4 weeks and 2 days! But its nice to have your parents well wishes, and i know his approval means alot to J. S0o0o0o0o0o0o hopefully he has nothing but well wishes and support! (nerves) anywho, got a little homework to do tonight also so at least i can be busy! -K.

one word

only one word describes my weekend- amazing. though it FLEW my with a blink, the small amount of time with the love of my entire life was enough to remind me that all my stresses and emotional spazzes over distance are worth it. our first night was spent drinking dos XX,listening to music on our patio in rocking chairs, day 2 we spent eating BBQ & playing video games together, Night 2 we ate at a GREAT italian restaurant with my dad and step mom (always great company) Easter Sunday (hectic)- went to my moms (huge family gathering) then went to my dads (far more relaxing) then came home and packed, oh, and cried and cried. I fully expect myself to cry but everytime i see J. cry it literally breaks my heart into 1000 pieces! anywho I dropped him off at the airport at 5 this morning, due to the flock of people staring at us I didn't get hysterical as I usually do, thought i would refrain from humiliating J. haha. status now?- feeling a little empty, BUT hanging on to my upcoming martial bliss (just 4 weeks and 3 days) -K.

HE IS HOME IN 3 HRs!

its only for 3 days, but hey i'll take what i can get haha! i have butterflies in my stomach!!!!!